Morning Routine

Trying to get my morning routine sorted out so that there is a sense of consistency in my life.

Can't seem to ever get it quite right. Can't seem to do what I am supposed to do at the appropriate times.

Eating breakfast is one of my struggles at the moment. I don't think I have ever made time to eat breakfast consistantly.

I have also given up fast food for lent, as it was becomming ridiculous in terms of how much and how often I was going for these binge meals.

Still, I know that with some perseverance I should be able to get the morning routine a little better and with time my life ought to improve.

I don't believe my life will ever be fully optimised but at the bare minimum I can look after my body it ought to make a difference.

About to drink another coffee, stimulants make me feel relaxed. Undiagnosed ADHD...

What is interesting is that I often skip breakfast because there are more important things that I know I need to do and my brain can't quite seem to prioritise the basics like going to the bathroom, drinking water and food. Although in that dehydrated and tired state I can hardly produce high quality work. Then I am often so distracted that I get lost in some task that has nothing to do with what I set out to do.

Now as a more experienced human being I am wondering if an element of routine and getting the simple things right will actually help me get more work done in a more timely way.

I have had to humble myself to the process in order to bring about this positive change.

Granted I am only two days into the eating breakfast agenda and by all accounts todays breakfast was partly a failure considering it consisted of shortbread and two custard doughnuts. Still, it is progress.

I wonder if I should go for a walk through the park while it is such a nice day. Often I wait until it is dark before I finally get myself organised enough to get outside. Although it's not like I am lazy, I just can't seem to align my activities properly with my situation.

I do find it easier when I have somewhere to be at a certain time. There is nothing worse for my sense or prioritisation when a shedule is not imposed on me from the outside.

Having said that, I do love following my own schedule.

I can't really go for a walk because I have left all of my laundry until I was going around commando yesterday in swimming trunks. So now I am on my third load of washing and hoping for the best.

May this be a good day, regardless of my disordered interior world.